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Mein Selbstfindungtrip geht weiter. Ich bin mir nun zu etwa 80-90% sicher, dass ich so etwas ähnliches wie zwei Seelen in mir habe. Dies ist eher bildlich gemeint, passt jedoch: Ich habe meine sanfte und meine rüde Seite. Die Safte ist jene, welche der Guitarist einmal als Prinzessin bezeichnet hatte. Sie ist für Frieden auf der gesamten Welt, gegen jegliche Gewalt, sie liebt Blümchens*x, hört je nach dem sogar melancholischen Pop, eher aber Dinge wie Rock, Gothic, Mittelalter, from New Wave and Electro-like or even if it is precisely now. She loves to look beautiful, artistically painted to be, to portray himself to write down their thoughts and their narcissism can be sprayed. She is in the truest sense of the word a princess, gentle, rather quiet, very melancholy, occasionally depressed and sometimes even a little pity. Which is usually compared to the rude, hard side of me. This is joyfully violent, rebellious, politically and socially interested, but mostly set oppositional. The makeup is less jun, but darker, just the clothes. The male side used more often black than the princess, who like red and combinations of uses. Rivets and Co. can only be found in the coarse side. In general, the two pages as they are by name imagining feminine the princess, the male side rather rude. The Princess even think about it to get back to Bali and live here again, after school, which abhors the unadorned website. Of course, both also partially matching opinions (such as that man to blame for the Zerstörrung the earth), but other solutions (Princess: What the hell, I'm not always long, rude page: kill all people!). The guitarist said it was the case with all. I believe him that, but I doubt that it is in the ground in every person. I think I'm an extreme, but maybe I'm just melodramatic.

My front right side of the brain just starts to pound, my whole body is hot and even though I am sitting in front of the fan without clothes, I do not warm to hot. I think my current swimming in the pool in the rain (was rschkalt *) has not done me good. I think after this post I'm going to bed Stuertz.

I just made a test:






Disorder Paranoid Personality Disorder Schizoid Personality Disorder : Schizotypal Personality Disorder : Antisocial Personality Disorder : Borderline Personality Disorder : Histrionic Personality Disorder : Narcissistic Personality Disorder : Avoidant Personality Disorder : Dependent Personality Disorder : Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder : -- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- is remarkable that the narcissism and paranoia are set only as a medium ... as it shows once again that these tests can not be trusted.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Demo Derby Cake Topper

Today was my first time at the Hard Rock Café, as the guitarist played there. Before that, accurate foul on him, flew by my anger, I hardly saw him. Our relationship is at the moment, more or less in balance. Today's self-discovery is that I realized that my L-Ex was right and I can hardly blame him, that he harbored a grudge against me several times (with his ill-aborts our relationship is a mistake in turn); I leave to - from my anger at those innocent people and others - more or less. It is not uncommon that in my anger for one person to another to get ready, because they dared to say something which caused my Unwollen. It used my L-Ex, which was often the whipping boy, to my N-Ex as a wimp easy prey and now it's just the Guitarist. At some point I will lose it all by my (male) friends - except, of course, my candle, at it I would never do something like this - it's clear to me, but as with any other bad qualities of my self I do not see any compulsion to act. Of course, action is needed, but I can postpone it and to forget at some point. I do not know what the reason for my Unwollen to change myself to be provoked, but whatever it is, it seems to be extremely disturbing. On the one side it could relate to my narcissism, that I feel so perfect that it's a shame myself into (I think maybe) to something worse. On the other hand - what is "desirable" and realistic - it could be the fear of self-change, the moment I'm already through drastic changes, which I may sustain in any way (so that both mood swings, as the decline of DOH AP mentioned), but the unintentional or not personally certain changes. How should I deal with self-inflicted, this would weaken my self-confidence? Even though I am convinced that my narcissism has risen, I am sure that this is an externally induced narcissism, by all the attention, which consists of less frightened curiosity but more out of admiration kind caused. And my self-confidence seems to have increased in any way. Granted, it is also not fallen, but I feel this is a reason for concern. Eswürde I fear, be reduced if I experimented on me. And that what I need it the least, is a fallen self-confidence.

me busy, but not only this problem. So far it worked good to be AP-interested, without having to open stand by it. I am not shy in front of the official "candidate", but nevertheless I feel it is a significant step which should be weighed. And now it is pressing. To 31 I have to make up my mind spätistens. At least it runs

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with the "know-Anner be" forward. Although none of them read my entries, but it could be that I will soon find friends here. Where that would be rather a disadvantage, I would like to hide my entries before German eyes until after DOH or other my death, ohni they need to keep secret.

Here is 04:24, I must stop would still read a little.

Diesel Filter How Often

My last entry is already some time ago. I never felt the desire to carry on. But now I must be near. If too much has happened. On the one hand, with its guitarist back all right, so more or less at least. We have not seen for sure two weeks. Next Sunday I'll go see my mom, her friend, two friends of us and maybe my aunt to the Hard Rock Café to play him there. But I think our relationship is flattened ... to my question whether he would stay his future children of the opposite sex, He said his son is not so, but the daughter. Since I'm exploding inside. Normally I would have yelled at him, but here with the people you can save yourself this, who have their opinion, the change they do not accept other opinions and most of them with a shrug. Well, whatever, he will not care about me, with every new day. I think I slide back into one of my assozial phases. She has also leave it for a long time in coming.
The Guitarist told me recently that I had changed quite a bit, would not be as influenced by the Gothic style (which he meant that I am attracted more colorful and have long worn or rivets neck strap or black lipstick have), I would have verwandelnt into a princess. With Prinzession he says happily not the cheesy stuff and I need him (unfortunately) give even right. I have more red than black on, however, no other colors are on me, does not so colorful. Collar rivets and lipstick were forbidden me to take public udn for what I should make up at home? Otherwise, I've got boxes of donated confidence, so that the princess agrees though, I see myself as a princess but rather of death. And could not the greater difference between body and soul are more, as my appearance is always white, thickened, my soul to more and more absolute black. I think not more directly to DOH, but it is in the ground in every thought from me. I will be aggressive, angry, am full of hatred. This hatred is not discharged, which is probably worse.
I did just finished for today's families output. And once again am incredibly in love with myself. This narcissism will continue until tomorrow afternoon.

I think I should incorporate something profound, otherwise, this entry is so for nothing. Since I am from these groups participate in discussions where MySpace and me some scales fall from my eyes. I cherished aggression against society, since I mutated into Goth, but with every day to increase this. The company, the other singles, the company which boasts of being oh-so tolorant intolorant but is against the intoloranten. This is sickening! Maybe I am repeating myself, but even if that can not be said often enough. Today's society is against this sooo bad and neo-Nazis, against the rights and Skninheads (to time in this department are raging). They sat skinheads with neo-Nazis like to swallow the difference between neo-Nazis and all the legal rights entitle extreme right and condemn any thoughts. At much the media are to blame, that's for sure, but who will, and his mind or his Brain uses that should not be so stupid and give all the blind faith! But that's what happened! And perhaps it is just those who read the scribbling here may eventually clear, because most are the few who are thinking about! The others remain in their bubble, unable to open for other opinions. I begin to explain not so, where is the difference between the above mentioned groups, but there are plenty of informative Internet sites. I let my anger run free only here! Name tolorant and are intolorant! That really is an embarrassing action! At least in the dub Intoloranten tolorant not want to but their attitude! Not that it would free
intolorant they are of the debt, but that point of view of any right-thinking a lot more honest than the self-fixed left. Here I must interrupt

to give something important place before I go. This entry DOH is slid back into my thoughts. In one of the above-mentioned groups, I've gschrieben MySpace, I had the time behind me in what I had been thinking about school massacres, in the sense that they commit themselves to shake up the company. And that I have learned that there are other ways with the same goal. The former is of course a lie. The latter is the truth, there are other ways in which I could reach the same to move the company to consider. But a school shooting is the best way. If you want to give you the ear of the people, then you have to do something, what they shocked. The more shocking, the more will get more attention from more people, and thou in today's society it has to be something serious, worse, malicious, that they are shocked. When a school massacre, they are shocked. The more I kill, the better. On the one hand, there are few people less dannein on this earth, which they can zerstörren, on the other hand I am so genrzübergreifende get attention. My goal would be at least 50 people. The only way I can reach the people, at least I hope I can reach them. And if not, it just shows that society is just that, for I believe them: stupid, stupid, brainless and useless.